From 1979 – 1980 I did the full year-long ritual known as the Knowledge
& Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel.
A full accounting of this and of the rituals I used (primarily Liber
Samech and others more private) can be found in my book YOUR GUARDIAN
ANGEL AND YOU, published by Red Wheel/Weiser Books: http://www.psychicsophia.com/YourGuardianAngel/
Near the end of the process, I actually attained a vision of my HGA
that knocked me unconscious and left me in bed for a day- then the
As the flood of gnosis intensified, I moved across country to WA State
(Bellingham), landed there and finished the working near the end of
April, planning a final sealing of it all on May Day. A series of
‘tranmitted’ message came ‘through’ me, usually as automatic writing
scribbled across pages in a weird handwriting flowing from an inner
voice not mine. Usually I’d get a ‘call’ that would tug at me to get to
a quiet place (often outside, by a tree or sprawled on a lawn) with a
pad and pen and- zoom- it would burn through me and then be gone. I was
(and am) always surprised and puzzled by the results. A lot of it can
clearly be seen as bits of mythos and stuff from my mind, experiences,
previous magicks and so on- but some of it… Oh, a final note. Just as
the last vibe earthed in early May, Mt. St. Helens erupted, the sound
slamming my home & aura like a huge angelic laugh. Ha.
So, for the sake of some sort of history or closure, I present them all
here. They were just too weird to print in my book, but clearly nothing
is too weird for Silver Star…
THE BOOK OF THE HOLY
of the Holy Chosen One>
THE BOOK OF THE HOLY CHOSEN ONE
" I am the Master, thou art the Holy Chosen One.''
-AL. II. 6 5
Existing without form or identity, the light from single star is cast
into the vast void of Space.
1. This is the Beginning, the Journey and the Ending in Joy (IOI) and
2. Unto the Hawk's flight is cast the light of gold and the Sixfold
Flower unfolds from the depths of a Beast's Heart.
3. The Emanations are of 3 and 1 whose mysteries are of the 13 and 31;
the Zos and Kia , the beginning and ending of ALL that was and is, the
Cycle of God and Wheel of Ages. 10 PAN. 1-3-1.
4. And the Twin Faces blaze in front of me and within me as a
two-headed Serpent and I am destroyed. The Abyss, Annihilation; AMN.
5. The Light descends unto the Hawk of Flame. From there to the Earth
and her Daughter; the MA and DA. The birthless Idolatrous MA- DA-NA who
is childless Whore of the Lion-Serpent and Rider of the Beast.
6. The Seeds are there awoken and I stretch forth into the infinite
void about me and there is a STAR.
7. The Union and ecstasy of the One dive into that which can not be
described. The Spiral is the Union as the Motion is the Synthesis, the
Pattern is simple, the Cycles are endless.
8. The Height and Beauty of the Universe am I and my eyes fly upon
butterfly wings, the glint of my eye is the Serpent's.
9. The Sister entwines incestuously about the Mother and I am Nowhere,
lover of both and None.
I knows I
And Union is begun.
10. The Dance becomes the Run becomes the Walk becomes the Movement of
Creation, no matter how small. Let all be ART, thus you shall find the
4 Pillars of Stone and sanctuary in the arms of Sphinx.
11. Of the Demon lot nothing be said, his medium a defilement of
matter, his Union a bliss most deliciously evil. Silence is the key to
his temple, Laughter his banishing convocation, and Unity; = 666
The Alkhemical Gold extracted from filth.
The Serpent is therein, Dragon of Amenta and the splenderous cells of
ill-us-ion and malediction.
This is a later writing, being KNOWLEDGE.
12. And begetting and manifesting unto the Light and Dark I join my
Phallos and Heart unto my Eye and behold the Joy and Dissolution. Thus
may I be a crown of flowers, scarlet and golden in the sunset, upon HER
13. And my birth was in the primal jungle amidst the baying of wolves-
drums echoed over the swamps and oceans.
14. In the 3 is 1, and 1 is divided by the Arrow of the 3, sundering
the darkness of the void and creating LIFE.
15. ANDRO-MEDA. medium of Man, source of all emanations; Wheel of
Wheels; my Balance, my Maat and Karma-brother/sister. ANDROGYNE
16. Down a triple-chambered hall I stumble, the Light of A Moon filling
the mirrored chambers of the hive; the Labyrinth- the tunnels sundered
from darkness by the Double-headed Axe of Light. And the Goddess
laughed at the dividing and cried at the Union and I am the Third; a
Hawk is my Ka.
17. And the One is the Center and the Laughter, Love and Life in whose
Union I rejoice; the Sun of my Universe, thy name when the Whore dances
away; the Hawk of Blood soars into a jade sky.
18. The Cry of Hawk and Vulture echo from my throat as the Will and
Love of the Secret Heart playing within his Bride; the Spiral in, the
19. And I have been given the Tablets of Eye and Feather, bound about
by the Emerald Snake with ruby eyes. I have placed them within the
Inner Shrine and we are the 3 who are 1. Set in the anger, the hate,
the back-lash of the Joyous Serpents' escape from the cold Egg, now
useless; As the Butterfly escapes from it's Death to rise to the Star.
20. I am the Link of Ages, All I am dances as 3 and 1 and these are
Time and the Cessation of Time; the completion of the Dance of PAN.
21. And nothing is changed, nothing brought up or laid low; it is only
the falling away of the Veil of Ill-us-ion and the dance of Ba-Bal-On
about the Horned Lord.
22. And I beheld the Light and united with it and it spoke as a
Double-Wanded Dancer in the Pyramid upon the endless plain of sand
under a Black Sun.
23. And ART is NIGHT, N.O.X – utterance of the Third unto the Hosts of
The Sundering Is the Unity and the Logos is the Aeon and the Mask of
Black Pan, Ember eyes
Stands upon the Blasted Tower
And plays his pipes.
" I am alone; there is no God where I am. "
By the hand of my Angel;
An offering unto my Angel;
AUGUST 8, 1979. Full Moon.
By my Seal;
COMMENT : BOOK OF
THE HOLY CHOSEN ONE
"I am the master, thou art the Holy Chosen one. " - AL.II.65
I have been blessed with the contact of my Angel. AL.II.65 ; 65
signifying ADONI or the H.G.A., thus reflecting the nature of the
second book of AL; Hadit. This quote is also the 131st verse in AL.
0. ALONE = Aleph + Lamed + Ayin + Nun + He = 156
Pleroma and the motion caused by the 'one star'; Sothis or the Hidden
VOID = Vau + Ayin + Yod + Daleth = 90 (Tzaddi)
1. The nature of the universe as 2 = 0 is revealed along with the twin
masks of existence.
JOY = Yod + Ayin + Yod = 90
2. The emanations of Tiphareth are awakened in the adept and the KA
soars from Malkuth (Baphomet) up the Tree of Life.
BEAST = Beth + He + Aleph + Samech + Teth = 77
3. Tiphereth is the only Sphere to receive three 'rays' directly from
the Supernals. This triangle-image received (see next page) was given
unto the adept before this Liber and forms the basis and trigger for
this transmission. This "pre-transmission" is at the end of this
comment. 13 is the 'unity into the trinity' (AChd = 13) 31 is the
'trinity again becoming one'. (AL, LA, KIA, YeZDI all = 31) The
expansion of creation, the contraction of unification. There is also a
connection between 131 and 13,31. ZOS and KIA refer to the play of the
body and eye, the evolutionary dance about the Wheel whose circle is
ZOS and hub is KIA.
WHEEL = Vau + He + He + He + Lamed = 51 (Maat = 51)
4. Putrifaction before dissolution, the shedding of tired beliefs from
the Old Aeon. The "lurker on the threshold". The unity manifests
division as it's shadow. (Thaumiel the double-headed, qlipoth of
Kether) AMN (Amen) refers to the END of the old Aeon and the personal
division in the adept. (or at least the beginning of this)
AMN = Aleph + Mem + Nun = 91 (OAK and MAN = 91)
Fool (Ka) Hanged-man (trials) Death (dissolution)
5. See previous triangle diagram. The power descends from Sothis to the
mask of the 'solar engine', this Aeon ; Heru. From there it radiated to
Earth/Moon. Next is a discussion on the unity of the primal
Mother/Daughter, Demeter and Persephone, Earth/Moon who is Babalon in
unity. The Great Mother (56) + Moon Center (100) = 156.
MA-DA = Mem + Aleph , + Daleth + Aleph = 46 (number of chromosomes)
The seed-life climbs the D.N.A. program and instinctively reaches back
towards the Source ; Sothis. There is a universal pattern, the
archetypal D.N.A., the primal imprint upon which every permutation of
life is patterned, though the variables are endless in evolution.
8. The Ka, Ba and Kundalini are united in the exaltation of the Angel;
the Butterfly and Snake united! These are ancient symbols of the
9. The adept must fulfil all archetypal roles; Son/Lover/Father and the
final or Baphometic formula; "Self Love". (see Spare's works) This
verse also shows how the adept is emeshed within the cycles and
energies of the Earth and the Moon.
10. Every action is ritual by the Hidden God unto Nuit. This is
revealed in the word given unto the adept by his Angel; ART = Aleph +
Resh + Teth= 210
The pillars are the root of the magickal universe, the SPHINX.
(see the SPHINX formula, Liber Aleph)
11. This pertains to the Abyss and 333, it is self explanatory. Daath=
knowlege; a further communication along these lines is promised later.
SILENT = Samech + Yod + Lamed + He + Nun + Tau = 555 (Hadit in full)
16. The Kalas-paths and the tunnels are given unto the adept by NU,
'she-who-divides from-naught'. Her joy is division and dissolution and
there are no sorrows in this. I am her child, the player of her game;
Heru. This verse reveals a moment a-float beyond time, exploring that
crack. Also a possible reference to the path of the High Priestess from
Tiphereth to Kether over the Abyss.
17. The joy of IAF and the proximity of union is stated. A mystery is
revealed; BABALON (156) taken from the Sun (Resh, 200) = 44, a four
fold number of Heru. (see Mass of the Phoenix) (DM ('blood') also = 44)
18. Horus and Mast propel the adept as Hadit within Nuit. Thus do force
(Horus) and balance (Maat) guide the flight of the adept on his spiral
course. The spiral is the mode of energy, all space is curved. (see the
Oracles of Zoroaster and Einstein)
19. This concerns the double current uniting Hadit. The Eye is Horus,
the Feather is Maat, the tablets their respective holy books and/or
works produced by/for this current by the adept. The serpent that
unites them is Hadit. This complex has been enshrined in ART and in the
inner self of the adept. In fulfillment they are ALL or Pan and the
Androgyne-center of the triangle.
For every forward action there is and equal and opposite backwards
reaction. This also refers to the Kundalini.
20. I am the sum of all my forefathers and my future descendents; they
are all incorporated in my SELF.
3 = Binah (Saturn) = Time (Ychronos)
1 = Kether (Pluto and beyond) = non-Time (Cthonos)
31 = AL = God - creation = Time or LA = Nothingness = dissolution;
The END of all Aeons, In the beginning PAN, PAN in the end.
21. This transmission is itself illusion, nothing has changed but the
perspective of the adept; the STAR. Reality is perceived as the play of
Pan and Babalon.
22. The-mystery of the Double Wanded One Coph Nia (QNA " 151) and the
double helix of LIFe (D.N.A. = 55) are one mystery whose number is 418.
A reference is made to the seat of this mystery; Binah.
( see H.M.L. paper 'on Heru Ra Ha')
23. As mentioned; ART = 210 ; N.O.X = 210 , HER = 210 or;
ART= Fool + Sun + Lust = 210
NOX = Death + Devil + Star = 210
HER = Star + Star + Sun = 210
The unity of the three formulas on the path for attainment are revealed
as the light and dark forms of the adepts Angel AND the unity into the
center-Bindu which is beyond.
Each Angel, when manifesting, IS the Aeon he/she is working in at the
time. (this manifestation is hopefully free of ego) This Aeon (now) the
'mask' or 'Logos' is Horus.
The illusions of Maya, even if only for a moment, have been shattered
for the adept and he is ALONE, as is every GOD. He becomes, at the end,
one God and this is his God; PAN.
IO PAN !
The Comment is complete by my hand
and that of my Angel . 131.
CONCERNING THE TRIANGLE WHICH IS THE CORE OF THIS WORK
And this is the triangle;
The emanations are birthed from the Goddess of Shadow as a child of
dawn, pale and silent; upon her volcanic throne is uttered LOGOS unto
the blazing sun which is the source of all energy, Ra Hoor Khuit, and
thy Tree of Life and Death, Father of All.
Unto the Earth Mother is the LOGOS repeated and the convoluted seeds
planted of Sothis become beings. They aspire to Godhead and do strech
forth their hands and pluck the gold and silver fruit from the World
Then shall they be of Sothis and the triangle be complete.
In the center is the Eye, it is white with the brilliance of countless
stars whirling about and invisible center.
It is the birth-place of suns and men have named her
And in the end the Cycle shall be still and all the voices raised unto
a single sound.
July 31, 79
Precursor to L. H.Ch.0
0. Cross of life and death
And rose are thee
Red Self upon the thorn filled tree
1.4 and 4 again
One to bind them
4 winds, 4 flames
4 the All
One to trial them
One must sacrifice
ALL: a rose
2. 4 trees and natures
Cubed is space
Relation defined perspective
In the 5th
Reawakened by the chant of spring
3. Through the Gate
Of dimensional 4
Uni-none, found without.
4. Of each there is one
The giving all necessary
In quartering of flesh
Each returns to its element.
5. A Shell disolves
In swastica colors
A light is left
6. Uttermost beyond
This cross of suffering
Wading through bones of Aeons
7. Balancing of self for Self to enter
Adjusts the Wheel; It stops.
Axil flow begins
Watering Hell, burning Heaven
8. A redeemed Magickian is a mighty God.
+ 131 + 4/15/80
Sub figura 20
1. There is a purposeful continuity before me lost in the wonder of
2. Behold the Wand, rod opf infinite binding.
3. Ba, Sex-Set-uality, Oro serpent one who strikes at wonder &
4. Ka, the Upper Temple of the Whore House Babalon, then of Seth and
5. The LightOne bound to DarkOne, ever to dance and weave about through
the infinite spaces.
Still, it be the falling one
Till all is done
Angel mated to Daimon
6. One must join ne in One.
Through Aeons the Two dance, for One may not return Home without the
7. Herein the secret Janus.
8. Dance on flies the tongue, the script writ in flame; the Jade Cobra
shall spin spell!
9. Within the amber font of your eyes, the pool of gold wrapped in
green, diving into the calm.
10. Hold up, release, nothing withheld; Die.
11. AWAKE! (a-wake)
12. Fools to so decieve in blind sloth through aeon’s ribbon’s call.
13. Unto the united form flameth the formulae of birth death and the
Nether Regions of twice-filled emptiness.
14. Containers of pure light spill and explode upon the ebony mountains.
15. The Lead is brought to gold thusly;
16. Moon waters, emersed in caverns of darkness, mated with Serpent
Heiro Death- heated, heated from the core of the earth and
putrifaction, fantasies and addiction shall follow.
17. Creation, destruction, matter, energy, time: belief shall then
solidify to be crushed in a mortor of Will and with a pestal of Power,
this again burn to a fine ash, leave this in the sun for one year.
18. The lighter and heavier will separate, equilibrium shall violently
shift with the power of Horus, sharp swords shall train the Al-Khem-Isa.
19. See-parate, establish the temple of the One then the Other- become
silent, wax wrathful, unight the flight.
20. Mix these again
Until the Two will not separate
THE STONE IS WROUGHT!
- To Aion
- Midday 4/21/80
1. I dance with Hadit Sunstar, Daimon of morning sun, lighter of Aeons,
banisher of the Seven Archons
2. I/He blast the heavens clear, we soar as Fool and Star, a brilliant
globe of blue and red, lightening plays about the spinning globe- azure
amidst the Pit.
3. I see the vessels filled, hear the symphony created upon the lutes
of flesh dancing in cells of gold spurning freedom of lead and mercury.
4. See not reflection; speak not the words of wisdom, the script writes
faster than the mind can flow-ir.
5. Still raging, the storm resides therein – BOLT cleaving the eyes,
spitting heaven and earth with the sound of one million dying- the Aeon
has come, I am the mask come stalking through the jungle of Trees to
devour the gazelle, I am the Lion afire, the bright Bird Ba of flame.
6. Nowhere silent endless flight onward throughness of which time-space
know not nor sees not- flowing betweeness thought form impression leave
songs to sing, tales to tell the Chela.
7. Hawkling, worm fed, screams for blood and many crowd upon his wings,
filling endless sky he cries WER God, eyes of sun and moon.
8. Mountain phallus, water womb, ocean desires the land forming the
life therein erupting, formed by the dancing currents, singing to a
symphony of endless star cycles.
9. The Early Ones call me, they erupt through my hands, eyes and tongue…
10. I am the Star cast upon the endless sea, rushing forward into the
oblivious goal of all creation, the Gate of the Beyond-Sun and one
link, one chain shall then bind the rebellious Angel FREED.
11. The Pyramid, the four-phallus swastika of fire alight, the touch of
12. First mound of creation, first lit at dawn- Point of All atop the
obelisk becomes the centerpole of pyramid, therein a teaching as
seed/aethyr center conjoins with goddess four-square, the levels are
intermixed thus a third is formed.
13. Thus the point who is NOT is Pan to Chaos- Babalon of endless
possibilities, four-square womb of reification, cancerous whore of the
slime, brittle blackened mummy of death and the shattered wheel-
14. I call the mystic Womb-an 418, Golden One who is the beginning and
the end of patterns sparkling weave spin the webs of Hadit amidst the
16. Mysterious One
Opener of the Gate
Wherein I shall die.
- Scribed by my SELF unto AXIL, Noon 5/6/80 <Aion>
A KA DUA TUF UR BIU BIA CHEFU DUDU NUR AF AN NUTERU